Christmas, eating and good old fun....

Christmas came and went, but i still hear people wishing each other merry christmas. i also learned from a sermon that we do not use the word merry x mas, as it is actually cutting christ out! The season greeting and merry x mas was from someone who did not exactly like christmas, but no christ, no christmas.

Christmas eve for me was last minute of additional presents and got home and revamped my gingerbread house. This was the third time it was on "display", this time the flags were changed to 12 names of people who would be the new house owners. I discovered that a bird's eye view was definitely than the normal shots i took. I left or passed the house to my niece, Ashley and perhaps for her to view as a doll house.

Last sunday, hosted get together for my hospis friends and the roast and chocolate fondue was fun. By my standards the roast was so so and the green pea soup a little bland. In any case it was nice for friends to just meet up and chat. This thursday on new year's day, am having pastor and rachel and then dr Jega over with sandra..

Ok, still yet to learn how to make photos larger. As i write, i just received call from Princess that she was taking Happy to the vet as he has been coughing and sneezing. God please let him be ok and just need rest.......like me. It is rare i sleep 8 hours, i normally do 6 but guess must be tired......... i take rest now.

December's here.........

It's the 18th already, and by my standards....two biggie events gone thru..phew. And nope i am not blaming anyone but myself....for wanting to do everything, well not everything but just wanting to do stuff that people did not ask.

First there is the ginger bread house, which Praise God did not crumble. Took me about a week, starting with the fencing and "planting of the trees". It was nice and fun, but i got carried away and wanted to do cookies to bless people and cake etc etc etc. The packing was one thing......It was fun and yes, i am pleased that many were thrilled and took their cameras out. It was nice to place about 14 to 15 flags of my fellow church members and a major flag of our church as the centre point. Was glad i could place the twinkling lights around the house..

Am tired and perhaps could just post photos and write the next day... Just to share the photos but i do wonder how to deal with it..i mean pasting photos as not all come out... Let's see what others i can, some pretty pictures i hope//

Was it a mission accomplished?

I've been back for almost 4 days now and though the purging has stopped, the coughing has started and is dragging. The strange thing was when the doctor prescribed panadol for my fever and pain i got a headache from it.

Overall, i must say i have been more blessed than i gave. I was especially blessed with all the sermons the preacher gave, Pastor Manoj is truly a man of God. It is remarkable how he expounds and explains simply God's word. I appreciate his boldness to share and say what he wants to, believe he was led by the spirit. The first day his sermon was about how God prunes and keeps us pruned so that we would bear more fruit, God does not want mediocrity, He wants passion! There were 2 other that really stood out for me which was........How in the book of Exodus God explained so many times in details how he wanted his church to be built, why did God explain it twice, it is because he looks into every detail, but do we take all the care he wants , No.......and the metaphor was how we should look after our body as we are the temple of God, and how we should not abuse it.

Last but not least was the morning devotion when he shared exactly, but of course in a more profound and deeper way than i was going to. I felt especially moved by his sermon about us not forgetting whom our giver is rather than the gift. Also, the raven and that fed us the manna, do we go chase for the raven or do we go after He who sends us the raven, it brought to mind not to forget whom our focus should be.

Very honestly, i felt tired by the continuous praying, whilst this trip was not as hectic in terms of traveling as the previous one, i am not quite sure if i gave it my all. I felt i took a back seat many a time, i did not even prepare anything for sunday school, but gladly so as the kids were busy preparing for Christmas celebrations. The worship was of course awesome and I was blessed, but i felt unworthy........Lord, forgive me because of this, forgive me for i did not give my all. I am not sure if it was because of my period that came on the first day or why, but i just felt i did not give my all. Lily was great and i hope she had a great time too. It was an experience for her and she is an encouragement for many due to her presence, at 71 years of age and still want to be used by the Lord. Praise you Jesus for Lily. Bapak is someone whom i have to admire for his zest and passion for all, i think even the pastor tire before he does for praying for people. Lord bless, Bapak Anthony for his steadfastness........Bless David for his cheer and his generosity.

Thank you for letting me hear that the Tebing Tinggi pastor's wife is better and walking already..Praises and glory be to you. Thank you Lord for pastor Manghihut and wife, bless and keep them in good spirits. Well, i think if any, i can say that it was good to see another chapter and phase from what i saw the first trip. It was good to see familiar faces again in beautiful Silhalpe, it was nice to see and know where Pastor Manghihut is. It was nice, will i go again, probably yes.......but for now, I think i need a little breather........Thank you Lord for the opportunity, All praises and thanks to you for an overall good trip.

Glory be to your name, for ever and ever....In Jesus name

God's back pack for me

My God is indeed AMAZING......... He really looks into details, He blows me over and over time and again. Look, i am leaving on friday for my Medan trip and because my first trip i used my first born's bag pack, i thought...oh she now needs it for her photography adventures, well especially because she asked about it. I was not stressed up but just thought about it. Well, the first thing that happened was my boss asked me help get him a tenant for his house...

I had a viewing a couple of weeks ago, and i noticed a bag pack there at the car porch. Did not think much of it and also maybe the tenant will come back to take it. Fast forward, just yesterday, i thought to myself, hey that is something i can use for my trip, and it is still there and none of the zippers are broken nothing, it is in a very good condition and all it needed was a good wash.

I decided it was probably God giving it to me as my daughter could very well need to use hers when she really travels. Eh, God is indeed so good, and when He wants to bless, He blesses and the things just wait for you until you take it. Praise Him, such an awesome and indeed Jehovah Jireh as He provides.........

Hasta la vista Maria

On Saturday, a good many of us went to Maria's house, and it was a way for us to say good bye to her. A co volunteer who would make her sweet puddings, soups and her pinyatas even. We manage to auction it off for her at RM150 a piece at our fund raising fair. Maria is a vet by profession and followed her husband whom, I am thinking is the ambassador for Holland. He could be the second man if he is not the no. 1 as the size of house and the guard, he is probably the former.

She comes in mainly on tuesday and her greeting is kissing many on the foreheads. I remember meeting her more than 2 years ago, and in my inner man, i felt she wanted some connection, so i arranged a lunch and coffee with her and a few of my christian lady friends. Unfortunately, it did not carry on and she made it nicely clear, religion out of the way........i did not persist, but also left it at that. Fast forward, 2 weeks ago when she shared she had to leave the country as they have a posting now in Croatia, Maria shared a few words with me. One of the things she said was it is not easy to make friends, her tears welled in her eyes. I felt she lived her life just existing and not living with joy. I am sorry if it comes across so harsh, but i think she wanted more intense relationships but believed it was hard to find, partly because she traveled so much. She said from the outside, people saw she has a good life, fancy house and travel etc., but nothing much. I took opportunity to share very briefly as a christian and having a christian family i think does wonders, as i think of the many expats in my church who wants to quickly find connection and a family in a church...... My learning was, i should have persisted to reach out, i stopped when initially she did not open.....i pray that she has peace as she makes her plan to move. I pray she finds real friends in Croatia, hopefully in the midst of loneliness, she finds God......

We had a fun time and the party ended about 8.30, so it is good to start at 5pm. Something new for me to learn. They are given the privacy and everyone is well and sober and not too tired for the next day. Jesus, please look after my friend, help her meet someone who will lead her to you. Bless her and her husband...

Eventful week....

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Starting with celebrating Princess's 24th birthday, and then First Born's returning, plus the bonus of securing a good deal this recent week has just been fabulous! Thank you Lord!!! Glad family got together for Michelle's birthday and then the nasi lemak treat of specially requested asam prawns and petai for Carol's return, it was truly cooking and cooking session this past week.



As i spent my quiet time this morning, the devotion for the day from my favourite Blackaby's Daily devotion was just so apt. It reminded me to be STEADFAST and remember my focus on Jesus and the assignment He gave me.

My mind immediately went to His prompting a few weeks ago about building up my church's prayer initiative. Whilst i acted on it immediately sharing it with Pastor Chris, and discussions with Joanna and Sandra,it came to a standstill after that. Thank God for the good time of fellowship and the longest bible study time out with Mia, who is quite a dynamite. i am so taken in and impressed with her about her action of getting Andy to give bible study to both Ewan and Emma. What wisdom and resolute action from this Korean mom who says.....investing with music and other tuition, why not on some foundation in their lives......I applaud her for such a wise decision. The call for corporate prayer took to flight today....I have yet to see how many signed up, but am glad i pressed on with this effort......Thank you Lord for the reminder.

Yesterday was especially full,and truly was really tired when we had dinner and hello meal from Julian and First Born. Am also glad i have had the discussion with First Born what her godma advised. Father, i pray you continue to watch over them and open doors for them as they come back for a year, work and earn some money until Julian's PR gets sorted in Auckland......i am glad i had the chat with julian to understand his love and zest for art through his tatooing(which i am not crazy about), i am glad he has a bigger plan or desire long term where this could possibly take him financially. I am really appreciative of the D'Patio signage, proud and amazed at his good wood work. I do hope he will teach me as i think it would be so special if i can do this for Wynn as a wedding gift before she leaves for Townsville.

Thank you for letting me say kind words to Dwayne as he did take care of Happy pretty well. Father continue to watch over me, sister Lily, Pastor Mano, Bapak Anthony and David thien as we prepare for the missions trip to Medan. Lord, please grant good weather throughout the journey and prepare the hearts of those whom we will meet. Anoint those whom will be sharing your word and let your glory shine. Please keep all of us in best of health.....

I thank you for my new friend Pris, and glad you used me to touch her. Bless and heal her sore throat and continue to shine your face upon hers. Thank you Lord for your presence in everything in my life.

My spiritual marker and cake baking

I have found a new friend, and it is absolutely wonderful to read her blog. She is young and so full of the Lord. As i went in again to read more of her God stories/testimonies.....this brought a big fat smile on my face and a reminder for me to create this spiritual marker. Pris bakes......and so do i.

My first cake baking incident happened during one of my work situation and this is what happened. It was for a rental of RM8000 and what was most uncomfortable was the way the deal went.......The co agent did not have trust and it was ouch really so unpleasant, here i was looking after my tenant, ensuring he does get the best, etc. there they were putting this and that condition.It was so unpleasant until i really could not pray that morning, i could not look at the co agent's face.

However, as i tried to pray and ask God what to do, i was prompted to bake them a cake!!! Just as my friend when she had issues with neighbour slamming doors or their flat and throwing out their signs. I still remembered i baked 3 cakes! I even remembered what i said.......It was "I am a christian, and it is very unfortunate something so unpleasant happened" All i know is whatever happened should not happen, and please accept this cake as a peace offering......I shared scripture with them Romans 12:18, as far as possible and it depends on you, be at peace with everyone! Praise God, i felt so lifted and shook hands and i guess they were probably scratching their heads as to what on earth was this agent thinking.

Fast Forward, my late friend Weng Tong blasted me and for only a small remark "you have no right to comment". If there was a richter scale, he blasted a 9.5 on me, and in my mind, i probably deserved a slap on the shoulder or back but not the way he flared up. Anyway, the following day care day, i baked his favourite butter cake, and again i remember what i said....."I am sorry for the way things turned out, and i just want to make peace".......Reluctantly, he received the cake. Weng Tong was someone in his 50s and a bachelor, and when i overheard him making comments on women's childbirth or kids stuff, i just remarked "No license"...I did not think it was so wrong......i did not apologise as in my mind i did no wrong, thus even when i gave the cake, it was just to make peace, not to apologise. However, GOD IS GOOOD and so great, because God showed me what i did not see.....I made several attempts to befriend him after that incident, and he chose not to forgive me.

I felt awful and terrible when he died after a sudden illness of 2 short months. I cried at the funeral and in my car as i followed the cortege, i asked God in the privacy of my car.....GOD what can i learn from this sudden loss...GOD then told me, what i said may not have been wrong and a big deal to me, but it must have hurt him so terribly for him to react the way he did. At that moment, i cried and apologised to him, though he was already dead, and not a believer. The lesson i learned though was, to be really careful with my words...what may seem trivial to me, could be so hurtful to someone else.

I do not know why but often when something goes wrong or i have a disagreement with someone, i just want to make peace. I am reminded of one sermon where the pastor said Whether you are the "offender or offendee", be at peace with everyone. I remember the beatitudes prayer.....Blessed is he who makes peace and is called sons and daughters of God.

My wednesday prayer group joked they must plan and stir up and argument so that they too can have free cakes! Just to share some recent carrot cake and to make it a bit of fun, i placed the batter in cup cakes and used the piping to squeeze in the cheese topping with walnuts. The other photo is my pumpkin pies, using the mini pie mould i salvaged. God is so good, and I thank HIm for letting me read Pris's blog. I am also reminded of 1 Corin 13 on love........Love keeps no record of wrongs, so no more miserable blog entries, why keep record of "wrongs" or bad times. Praise God indeed

An uproar on Cydee's arrival.......

Yesterday was hilarious.......as i facebook, i received comments and got people scratching their heads, a name for a fridge!!! How peculiar and how odd!.Well, i need to be zany when i am in one of those wacky mood swings......perhaps the time of the month had something to do with it.

Solomon's comment got me smiling.....As he gets older, he says he is discovering new things, and welcome party for a refrigerator......he says no one can say i am not creative. His eye balls probably rolled up when he heard the explanation of how i derived with the name Cydee...

It's just after 9pm now, and i look forward to my walk in the park with Lyla at 6.30am, at the break of dawn, the cool air and to think i am going to be feasted with breakfast after that. Thank you Lord for my time with my princess today. Father, please continue to watch over and protect her as she travels, bless her in her going in and coming out......I give thanks in Jesus name.

Cydee's Arrival....

Please meet "Cydee" my latest addition to my humble kitchen. She arrived today and 4 people, including Francis helped "deliver" Cydee to 61... She arrived before 1pm. Bless his heart Francis, our professional deliverer as he insisted pro bono for the delivery charges. Instead, Francis said......"Bake me another cake". Bless him indeed Lord, and thank you for blessing me too.

The floor was pretty much done to receive Cydee, and Miltion needs to make another visit as he did not bring the attachment to connect her to the tap! She is indeed my pride and joy...I say Thank you to Old Grey for serving me the past 3 years or so as i bade farewell to him to Eddie's abode. May Old Grey serve Eddie and his people well.

I better pen off now, as i continue to clean Cydee before i start feeding her with food she has to store as i switch off Old Grey a while....... Oh yes, yesterday i used my portable signage...and the first words scribbled, much to the disappointment for Umi as Eddie did not take heed of the loud hint to tip her! Well, you cannot get any more creative or louder than that!

Ouch that hurts.....

Princess dropped Umi off and sat for like couple of minutes and showed me an accident/injury she had whilst on the job......Ouch!!! hot water and the 60% of her hand still looked burnt. My heart felt the pain, she is on standby tomorrow and says we could do dinner perhaps. Will message her if she wants western or my good old chinese congee... with century eggs etc.

Lily really lifted my spirits with her suggestion of the signboard to hang at our house. It is so encouraging that my sister thinks my cooking and decoration skills could let me make it a business to create small parties for people, i beg to differ. It is true i enjoy the decoration and giving people a wonderful experience, but as a business, i do not think i am quite at that level, not yet anyway......perhaps with more practice.

Tomorrow is the day of the arrival of my newest addition into my kitchen. I must show the cement screed i did myself, much to the delight of Rachel who joked and called me contractor irene! It only cost me RM20 with the battens and 20kg ready mix and quite frankly as i mixed the cement mix and scoop them on the floor, with the sides still sticking, my thought went to my spatula!!! How silly, in any case my floor is done and i await the arrival of my beloved fridge. Whilst in the shower this morning before going to church, i thought about the possibility of giving my small fridge to Song who was going to visit some home, but we will have to wait and see how if my fridge will be able to stock everything.......

Tomorrow is kind of a nice and mixed day...Monday morning prayer at Sandra as i go to Mia's, and by 11am or after to go pick my little beauty up from Bandar Utama. 2pm, good old Dr Tuen is giving me a treat for a massage. Yup, she sold her house, but not through me, so her way of showing appreciation......I am so blessed indeed.
Friday will be work again and thursday trip for the patients to Putrajaya. oops and monday our prayer meeting for the medan trip! Praise God, He has work for me........

My tummy rumbles a little as Julie's banana cake slides through my throat......A searching i go for photos and yesterday's Voices of Hospis was good, i loved the food presentation, Lord help me be a culinary Chef!!! With God all things are possible!

Blogging away...

It is after 8pm as i sit at de patio. Thoughts go to the monday when few of us women convene at Dr Tuen's house and had a baking session. It was nice that the hostess fed all before we don our aprons and chef hats.......Well, the nice thing is today i tried the new recipe i learned and observed. Gosh so easy peasy to do a crumble, an apple crumble. Death to the apple pies, no more need to struggle to lift pastry and struggle to keep them intact and into the pie dish.

Yesterday, at bible class i found some peace. As my mind went roller index for what could help me feel better after the encounter with princess, it took me to Romans 12:18...As far as it is possible and depends on you, be at peace with everyone. i went to the kitchen whilst bible study was on and i telephoned my princess, i told her what i wanted to say and blessed her to have a good trip!. I felt so much better after that, and her response was well too.

Today i had a long long lunch 5 to 6 hours with my story writer friend. It has been probably more than 8 months since we spoke, and she wanted to catch up. So i baked some salmon which i had an over supply and my first apple crumble....... It was nice and i talked too much. It was so nice to know Dr Tuen tried Helen's recipe too!

The photos attached are photos of the nice get together we had for Linda's birthpavali. It was good fun and ambience, where would you get love, fun food and fireworks all at once, as we sat at de patio, we chatted and the neighbours lighted the skies. I was only glad Happy was far from here with all the noise, as he would not be pleased. It was also nice and i thank God for the free drugs i got from my licenced drug pusher! Yup, i got my hypertension drug FOC.......who says you dont get free stuff!

My neck is beginning to feel a little stiff, so i better pen, eh i should sleep well as i had more than one glass of wine this afternoon. i look forward to another day and it is the day i say hello as i meet my new fridge, get her uninstalled and to ship her here to her new home soon...

Double standards and rudeness...

It is no fun being a mom! When you care and show concern to be given a tone, and the excuse coming back is because she just woke up. And why did she wake up, because she had to pick her inconsiderate boyfriend who does not give a damn that she woke up at 4am and got home only at 4pm and to ask her to come and pick him up from his workplace in the traffic.

This inconsiderate boyfriend does not have enough money to fix his car just for the battery and uses her car when she travels! This boyfriend shows his temper if he does not get his way, this useless boyfriend expects her to pay over RM2000k because she was driving it when the car broke down. Did he ask if she was ok when the car stalled no, instead he ask her why she continues to drive when there is a problem. This boyfriend now for more than 3 weeks cannot afford to fix his car battery, talk about losers!

She can get up tired and all, if not with blasting from me, would have stupidly gone to pick him up and then come back to sleep. Is extremely rude to me because........she just woke up, but she can wake up, tired and all, and go pick him up. Talk about double standards!!!

She calls when she needs to use you, she ignores when she has no use for you, that's what daugthers can do to you!

Tailored Mid Autumn Dinner........

Not wanting to be alone on supposedly the best time of the year to sight the moon at it's brightest and roundest, i.e. on the 15th day of the 8th lunar moon in the chinese almanac, i invited 2 young men to my house for dinner. Imagine a beautiful saturday night, and thank God no rain!!!

My soup was in the slow cooker and then made it's way to the pot on the hot stove with real heat, my garlic and onions were cut, sliced and diced. Vegetable was cleaned and all i had to do was cook. Excitedly, i checked the twinkling lights at "de patio" that had maximised it's life and replaced it with a new set from the christmas collection. I changed cushion covers and replaced a freshly washed table cloth. Oh, and spent RM2.99 for some cute teeny lanterns just to create the ambience for a finishing touch! Done.


The fish was deep fried and hopefully crispy enough, the vegetable was simply fried with slices of garlic, and good old omelet garnished with sprinkle of coriander leaves. I got my water goblet out, cut my 2 slices of lemon, and then quickly checked my red bean soup whilst it drowned the orange peel to give it a twang.....
A quick shower, and comfortably dressed, Marcus my first young man was early.


"3 minutes please", i said over the phone. Straightened myself in the mirror,a slap of lipstick and i was ready to receive my guests. Donned my strapped light green top with my girly red printed skirt and yes, comfortable indeed! Oh dear, i forgot the drinks! I opened the gate, as Mark entered, i said "Haven't got the drinks yet", i told Mark. Cooly he replied, "No fizzy drinks, its ok, tea will be good for Fung's high cholesterol". Mark followed me into the kitchen, as i heated up the soup, and looked at the house slightly different. Mark had come a couple of times to stay over when he was "roomless" in KL. He had left Malaysia for a spell to venture to Thailand for work, and thereafter returned with him, a nice sweet girl.

It was past half seven, and my other young man had not arrived. I said "Fung is never late". Within minutes, Mark calls him, and he is delayed. We sat with glass of water in one hand, and hunger creeping our tummies, a little sweaty as the ceiling fan was not on, not wanting to get the food cold.....We waited for Fung's arrival. He finally arrives, casually dressed as Mark in hand with Starbuck's yum yum for dessert!

Giving thanks to the Lord, Fung said an "Amen", and dinner started..... wine, fruits, red bean soup, tea and then wine and then chat. It was past midnight, we talked about many things, i shared about my growth, Fung about his 107 bottles of healing from a friend and Mark about a journalist who went hunting for the best fortune teller and his travels etc etc etc.......It was nice, really nice and i am glad i had my friends over for company......We bid good night and what a tailor made mid autumn it was for me! Thank you Lord, for the no rain, the breeze and opportunity for just a great time......Thank you indeed.

Suppressing the Flesh can be liberating...

Many months ago, i had an encounter which kept me a distant from this patient. Her strong remark kept me at bay, a 10' pole distance. Last week i gave a ride to 2 of my co volunteers after our day care day, and the topic in the car was about "Mdm Bling Bling". She loves and is constantly adorned with bling bling be it a brooch, necklace or rings... The conversation was toned negatively and in defense i said..........."Oh i had a taste of her moons ago, and ever since kept my distance". There was also talk about why she was allowed to come to Day Care if she had such a demanding attitude. Simply said, it was just negatively toned chat in my car..

That very evening, i realised that when i "gang up" with the rest who felt the same resistance towards her, how am i different from them who do not know Christ. One of my devotion mornings, Matthew 5:44, 46-48 jumped on me. i realised that i would not be reflecting Christ's love if i practised the herd mentality and keep away from her, how could i reflect Christ. It is so true that it is easy to love those who are lovable or whom you like, but what about the others? Today, 1st October, i made a real attempt to be nice towards her. It started as she walked in the Day Care and noticing she dressed a little special with the baju kurung or kebaya, i let out a WOW. Later that day, as the 2 of us volunteers chatted and i polished her nails and other patients, it was so LIBERATING to suppress my own feelings and ACTIVELY make an effort to be nice towards her. I shifted my focus to actually being nice rather than being irritated. .......!

The pain of the RM320 was real and at a time when the business was slow and bank account low too. I consciously am now ensuring i use the paid for internet more than my mobile when there is no urgency. Yes, in a way i am asking God why such timing for me to experience a cracked back wind screen....However, when i got back in the afternoon, Dr Tuen was waiting to give me a present, a cute little bag and RM100 for the showing of property during her vacation...Oh Thank you God for this type of unexpected gift. Indeed God life is not a bed of roses, and perhaps it is. With roses comes the thorns in life as well. As i read, learnt and hopefully remember this....In life, we must be aware of the thorns, but focus on the roses and it's beauty........In my case, the maturity and metamorphosis i am experiencing when i put others and not my own feelings. The joy i carry that really allows me to be a beacon of light for Christ....God let me shine, and shine always for your glory.. Thank you for working in me and then through me. Thank you for the liberating feeling as i am released and enjoy the sweetness in life... Thank you Lord indeed, and thank you Lord for the weather and letting my laundry dry in this wet spell!!! You are so good, i love you Lord.......

Good day? Mixed Day...

Oh i remember now, why it was mentioned as Good day. It was threatening to rain outside our house, but i went ahead and drove to Taman Tun. As i approached the toll, it was raining and quite seriously. Under my breath, i ask God.......Please soften the rain in the park. I was bargaining with God that if there were at least 10 cars, i would walk too, if not turn back. The rain as i approach the caltex station seem adamant to be heavy. But........of course my prayers were answered! There were quite a few cars, and in my mind's eye, i think there were at least 10, so i got into my raincoat and with i pod in ears, i walked.I had christian songs blasting in my ear, and it was nice as there were very few people so i could actually lift my hands sometime and sing along......yes people who saw me must have thought a looney...

Later in the morning, had breakfast appointment with my princess at Mac Donalds in Centre point. It was nice as we chatted about different things in life and going ons. She was receptive and hopefully will remember and come to church this sunday as she is back on saturday from Gold Coast. i brought her the chicken soup for her supper or lunch, herbal type she likes. It was nice time and i hugged and kissed her as we both had things to do as it was just after noon.

Good day as when i went to Church office for my prayer we had quite a bit to share and there were so many perspectives of life i felt i was in touch with. I shared about the possibility of starting a morning tuesday group with GM and possibly Pauline. Tomorrow i had dinner appointment with Eva, sadly someone whom did not have people and had to run back to South Africa just for support. Well, we will see if she connects and maybe join us in tuesdays get together when it starts.

Friday is breakfast with Laura and need to share with her what i did in my last mission trip and see how she can fit in and encourage her to quickly book her ticket. This weekend i would like to play a video bloop for the marriage course.Mixed day, because towards the end of the day, i read that there was an earth quake in indonesia. I need to pray for God to have mercy and comfort those affected....Father God, have mercy and turn not your wrath on us, please Lord, have mercy to limit the calamaties and fatalities. Father i trust you and i thank you for you hear our prayers. Lord please continue to watch over my children, especially Princess and keep her safe as she travels and First Born too, keep them under your wings of protection and shower them with your LOVE Lord that they may experience you. I praise and give thanks in your most precious name, in Jesus name.......Amen

My Sunday..........

It is 27th September 2009 Sunday and the clock on the computer says 10.52pm, and am seated outside at the patio, seated on the long bench and legs propped up. Smile on my face as i get to do this thing i like.......WRITING and EXPRESSING and there is music on the reliable Philips cd player as Rod Stewart accompanies me. Don in my pink colored pants and pink sleeves top which is my jammie for tonight!

After church and the EGM and being appointed along with others to be in the Pastor Search Committee, i am not excited, it can only be a daunting task. What was the feeling? Numbness, thoughts also who will be the secretary or secretaries, i hope not me, i can see some characters or strong styles and guess i should just pray and truly ask God to steer and guide us and bring forth unity. Am also wondering if and when my first born reads this and has an exclamation on her face as to why am i doing this. Well, things have happened and a new Senior pastor needs to be in place. Am sorry, but sooner or later she will find out. I think what is important is not what happen, but what is going to happen and how are we going to cope. How are we moving forward. Was with mixed feelings also when was asked about budget for previous retreat. Well, Lord give her wisdom and do not dampen her spirit.

This sunday after lunch and hearing the exciting news about my girl friend's first date with Mr Melbourne, i was so glad for her. Thank God for the fine weather and traffic as we prayed. Was also encouraging to hear her say his friends are christians too. Fast forward, browsed and bought a book about LOW CARBS, looking at myself in the mirror....argh i have really let myself go, and got to really watch it.

Well, the old lampshade has found a spot at my patio and got the cross fixed, got the key box and 2 wooden art hung up finally..............Eyelids getting a little heavy as i type now. Ok, gotta share the photos, oh the garden has been trimmed, am glad...........It is really really nice just sitting out at the patio, with the breeze and some fireworks as hari raya was just a few days ago. Thank you Lord for this is LIFE.............

Rainbow....

They say that God gave us the rainbow as a PROMISE HE will not bring destruction to the earth as He did during Noah's time, as He was so grieved and displeased with the actions of men. To me, sighting the rainbow this morning was God telling me He is pleased with what i am doing. There was a time when i served the Lord and i wondered and wanted to check my heart if i was being right in doing the things i was doing. Was i faithfully doing things He wanted me to do, so as i prayed and asked God, I asked Him to show me a rainbow if i was doing the right thing. So this morning, when i see a rainbow i will know i am doing the right things and not doing things righteously.

i was in 2 minds about going to visit my childhood friend for the holiday season. A bit of "did not want to make the effort", a bit of "no need la" attitude. Then, i recalled the sermon over the weekend and also remember how God wants us to demonstrate His love, be His channel of blessing to others so that He will be glorified. i baked the cake, and made the pineapple tarts, and shush.... forgot to take the pictures, but it was indeed a pretty sight, with my red organza tied with the pineapple tarts in a nice re cycled box and my heart shaped butter cake as a gift when i visited her. i shared with my friend about how God's word ministered to me in so many aspects of my daily living. i shared with her proverbs 19:11 where God showed me how and why i should overlook an offense. i sowed His seeds and word of God to my muslim friend, whilst being sensitive and still glorifying my God, no apologies needed. When a few other friends came, our chat nicely closed. What perfect timing God has so that I will sow, but not overwhelm as He knows the evangelistic nature in me could go on and on... We had lunch.....a few ladies and some non believers.

The very same evening i called upon my girl friends and we had fellowship in my house, we had a ball with Scrabble and a repeat of Taboo.......i was truly truly almost rolling on the floor as i held my tummy and bladder. As i spent time this morning, the devotion was about being matured, it was that we are to be infants of things of evil, but matured in the word of God. How great God is, an as i opened my main door this morning to sit at my patio, the rainbow was in full view of my sight. I said under a whisper, Jesus Thank you, you are pleased with what i have done.........I have loved others as you have loved me, never mind about whether they will ever receive you, it is your job, not mine. It is the work of the Holy Spirit. As i just returned from giving courage to a friend to move and make a decision, as i continue to sit at the porch and enjoying the breeze, i thank you Lord for the rainbow... i thank you my daughter arrived back safely yesterday from Perth, and having a good rest. I thank you my first born is at peace and the family she lives with there show love in their own ways.........I thank you Lord because you are good.......all the time....In your son's most precious name, I THANK YOU........

Sing Praises to Him........

Thank you sweet sweet Lord, because you indeed are Jehovah Jireh, the provider. Thank you for the new tenant who so quickly paid a deposit, what perfect timing. Thank you for time spent with my princess, thank you that we watched Lizzie together. Father i exalt you and how you hear my prayers. Thank you for really just eliminating the sms as we watched Lizzie and her hilarious way of sharing your good news with my princess. Thank you for imparting creative talent to Lizzie to reach out to others in a different way.

Lord, thank you for friends like Rachel and Maria, for being my praying partners. Thank you Lord for your Rhema word to me, thank you for your healing balm as i am better at peace. Lord heal her,my dear sister of the pain she is enduring. Thank you Lord for your word of John 6:63 and the reminder when one speaks and operate from the flesh,it results to nothing, but with the Spirit it truly gives LIFE.

Father thank you for who you are and what you do. Though i may not see it , Lord I believe. I also TRUST you, thank you Lord for Dr Paul Ang and his teaching on anointing.........Thank you that tomorrow morning will push away the night and darkness. I praise you Lord, i exalt you and I thank you for who you are. In JESUS most precious name....Amen

It's painful..........

So many things happened recently. First my first born shares some disturbing news about her boyfriend's situation, and then this. Receiving an email telling me not to contact her or her husband ever again. Whilst she knew my intentions were pure, she was upset, upset with every little thing that crosses her path and her husband's. i replied with an email apologising as that is all i can say, and said i did not realise my action of inviting her husband for lunch was inappropriate until he said NO.

i know she is hurting but her reaction is..... i really don't know what to say. All i could say is i was sorry and that i would continue to pray for them. How could i share this with someone else, her strong email with a cc to her husband. How could i share this with anyone for that matter. Father, i pray that you take the pain away from my dear sister. Lord, help heal her as quickly as you can. Let not their relationship go from where it is to a poorer level. Let her heal and learn to trust him once again. Father, thank you for giving me grace and understanding and not take it to heart her retort and her request for me not to contact her or her husband ever again. Erase this from my memory

Thank you Lord for this new tenant. Please Lord grant salvation to Fong's parents too. I just come to the foot of your cross and ask that you help me overcome this season of challenges. In Jesus name........

I praise and exalt you..........

It's August....

It's a saturday evening, just colored my hair and the background with Il divo and Andrea Bocelli, what more could i ask for. I had a very very eventful past week, and you could say this was one of the worst time in my life emotionally. Upheaval at Church draws the energy. If i could describe the feeling when the devastating news was told, it was this...i was shocked, my body just soften, i could actually feel the energy or strength in me being drained to my finger tips, that was how devastating the news was to me. Through the week, bouts of pain engulfed my days. As i go on my knees and ask God to restore things in church, i tear. From shock, my emotions turned to anger, how could this happen, what was he thinking? Disbelief, shock, anger and the whole spectrum of negative emotions surfaced. One evening the emotions of fear surfaced. I cried at midnight as i thought to myself, will i too fall? Even if i read my bible, spend my quiet time, pray and fellowship with other believers? Will i too fall? God help me, i do not want to fall, perhaps stumble but please do not let me fall. I had fear........

Things did not get any better in other areas of my life either. Someone whom i have such high esteem for and a soft spot for gave me more than an earful, a mouthful a byteful, you name it, i got it. Abuse, i don't know. Do i despise the person, no, not one bit. I hear what he says, whilst i wish he could find a better way to send the message, i listened and it was an awakening call for me. This morning, as i was down on my knees, i had a revelation. It was that there will be some who will be left behind and there is really nothing i can do. i resolved to just LOVE people as they are here, i would still want them to know my Lord, but i will not be so forceful. That way, both i and others live better. I resolved that i am a bond servant of Christ and it is not for me to question, but just do and obey.

I had a nice saturday afternoon with the girls, i don a silly hair band, i just wanted to be different and do not care if others thought me looney. i had a little bad news again, but i know it is for the better. My princess almost had a tenant but she decided not to proceed, the tenant felt the car park was important enough and for me, i say cest la vie......i prayed about it and i trust God thinks long term, this was not going to be a good tenant and He put the blocks, so i am ok with it. We get up and we try again.

It is almost 9pm and it has been a while since i have this peace. Thank you Lord and perhaps my friends who are praying for me, thank God indeed. I just re read my post and i think i know why i have the peace, I know God is near me, but also becasue for the first time in 3 months i spoke with my first born. She had not so good news,a nd it was quite amusing how she message saying she kind of lost her job.......i laughed with her and said you either lost it or you did not, you do not kind of. To my amusement, she said nicer la...., it's ok i thought as she was not really crazy about knocking on doors to solicit funds for Green Peace. I asked if i should pray again, and she said why i sounded as if it was a chore. i explained how specific i try to pray. We had a good chat, close to an hour. i am thinking next to God being with me, and having been prayed for, i know the conversation with my first born lifted my spirits. I love you girl and i know the right job will happen....and soon enough.

My pen rests.......photos of friends during my visit in chiangmai and the tree, an elephant painted that!!!bought it and am deciding whether i want to add some more colours to it.... combination man and animal work! Amazing indeed.

When there is growth, there is a greater need...

i just finished 31 chapters of Beth Moore's book titled "A heart like His". i have more to go, and unravel the not so pretty sights of King David, but am eager to learn how he perseveres to go after God's heart.

What else comes to mind as i cry my heart out to God is how to and when to. How do i show simplicity and not display my upset with people i favour less. i did not respond to the tugging of a plastic bag as i knew Alfred was kidding around, i did not want to give him the attention he always wanted to kid around. i wish i could be kinder but the flesh in me just creeps up and my way of showing displeasure is i do not respond. How also do i tone down my displeasure in my voice with my princess. It disheartens me to think her world revolves most of the time around herself. God grant me the patience and let not my skin crawl out.

i have in my mind to go for a holiday in Langkawi, i want to enrol in the painting class, i want to pick up the double door fridge as this big one is starting to give trouble. SO many things on my mind of the want to do and desires, but which one takes precedence of the other. i am also thinking i really need to get my administration in order, there is this trip in august, then langkawi in October and my desire for Medan and Silhalpe in December. So many things, God i thank you for the opportunities. My mind has also taken me to Hong Kong, the organisation Siew Mei is involved with. So many things, Lord help me prioritize them, help me organise them.

Father, i know as i grow, there is a greater need to have better administration, not just for filing but for priorities in our lives and what is important and what can wait. Yes, as i hear the cd of praise for you to shower down to this place, and let your presence fill this place.

i love and exhalt you.........

Senior Citizen's speed.....

Imagine, this blog was created 2 years back, and only recently am wondering how people paste photos on their blog. i know how to attach them on emails but only now as i explore further at these little icons above this text message box, did i realise there is one to say insert!!! So this shall have the first photo. Embarrassing but true...will share in fact what happened just last week.

i was a bit disturbed as i could not withdraw more than RM1000 not remembering that i was the one who set the limit. Told my princess about it and she said why not change your limit yourself. Change myself??? She then shows me how it could be done on the ATM. Try to punch in some numbers and because of the speed i was taking to punch in the numbers, i get rejected by the machine.

Fast forward, daughter sights my kawan ku, then says "Mom why don't you get the visa debit card". Visa Debit card??? I go to the bank and then ask about it, and it took me less than 10 minutes to get it. Imagine how jurrasic i felt that day!!! Ok, will give it a shot to just download some photos, so welcome to photo at last.... Picture take at Silhalpe, out of Medan, Indonesia. Photo, seated left Bapak anthony, judy,betty and me. Back, shaun and tea gan.