Chinese New Year comes to an end...

Its Chap Goh Meh, the 15th day of the first lunar month in the chinese almanac. I sit at my beloved patio, with background praise and soothing songs and music. The lights are on at de patio, the fan is blowing and God gave some showers of blessings a few hours ago, so the temperature has dropped a notch.

What i recall and want to share about The Chinese New Year.....This little fellow has elevated my status of aunty to God Grand Ma! Yes, Jayden is my first born's god son, so i happily adopted this "title" GGM!!! Nice twist eh.......Is he gorgeous and yummy or not? The internet is taking super super slow time to download Jayden's photo, so i guess i will just proceed with text.

It was loads of hardwork, and wanting things to be to a T, i did more than i should, moving furniture out to d'patio etc. Praise God i did not go overboard with what food i was contributing. It was great to display and share the few varieties of cookies i made. I must say it was not bad the peanut cookie and pineapple tarts, but the rolled mini crisps was a DISASTER.

It was good as i remember that i am a christian above being chinese, so first day or not, i used the broom to clean especially the kitchen. Thank you Lord for the opportunity to make maggie mee for my brother, to add the fried egg and chilli padi and serving it at the dining table. I am glad i allowed my spirit to rule and not be petty as Eddie and i are not the best of siblings. Praise God for giving me the opportunity. Praise God also for giving me a discerning spirit. Thank you Lord that i went to speak with Jeffrey and thereafter arranging a home cooked lunch with My Princess and first born, just to eat and fellowship there.

I thank God that i had work to do, and in fact for the past week i have been working more than i have in months. I thank you Lord as i believe Judy will buy the sri kasturina. I thank God that He has created a door for me to talk in a civil way with Chon. Thank you Lord which ever way you do and how ever you do. Thank you Lord that he is open to the possibility of Carolyn leaving Bangsar as her home.

Thank you Lord for giving me time to reflect and ponder. Thank you Lord for the Valentine day fun eat out with Ken and Bee as Carol and Michelle joined in. Thank you Lord for watching over my children. Thank you for today's revelation. To be your disciple i need firstly to DENYING MY self, taking the cross and following after Jesus. I googled to understand deeper what is meant by taking one's cross and i think if i understand it correctly is demonstration of LOVE ie carrying someone else's thorn in the flesh.

I thank you Lord that as i do not involve myself in too many things, i am seeing things differently. I thank you as it was a first time in many years i ever asked another opinion, so when i wrote to Chon and asked for his opinion on the tradition of Carol's wedding, it was as if it was shared the burden or responsibility. It felt different. I thank you that we will work JOYOUSLY in the planning of the wedding. I pray Lord you give us favour in all our plans and beautiful weather both for 18th and 19th June.

Lord, you are faithful and i cannot thank you enough. I now pause as i think where i should go for bible study. I hope people will be encouraged as i start pockets of prayer in different places. I praise you Lord for who you are, for the love you are, and i long to emulate you.....I bless your name and may you be magnified and all glory and honour to you............In Jesus name.

A TRULY SUPERNATURAL ENCOUNTER...

God is amazing......simply amazing, and i was really blown away this particular tuesday morning 25th January 2011...Here is my story.

More than 2 months ago i realised i seem to have misplaced/lost one of my earrings. I am not a girl who is crazy about jewelry, so quite honestly i took things very easy with the few gold/diamond pieces i own. My late mom's last purchase was a pair of earrings, diamond studs. She has gone home to be with the Lord about 7 years this year. Come July 9th, will mark mom's 7th year of leaving planet earth. Both my sisters decided i should take the diamond studs and so i wear it now and again. I was feeling very bad of late as i think of my carelessness losing the stud. Thoughts came as to how mom would save to spend RM2000 7 or more years ago, and how i did not take care of this. The first time i realised i lost one of the earring, i prayed that God help me find the other side as God you can do anything. I left it at that, but though weeks and months went by, i really felt bad when i think of my carelessness especially how difficult it must have been for Mom to save so much those days.

About 2 months or more ago, i realised one of the studs missing. i live in a house with 4 bedrooms, and i occupy 2. The smallest room, the balcony is where i rest my head each night, and where i have my make shift dressing table, using just 2 floating boards from Ikea....I also have my clothes in my bedroom. The other room is my study room where i have a sofa bed, it acts as a guest bedroom too, a tv(hardly used except for occasional movie), next to it is my arm chair, a piece of furniture i like, and of course a table and chair where i do most of my reading and devotion etc with 2 book cases.

As i do not do my devotion at the patio for security reasons, i do it often in the study. When i am done with my reading/bible study homework or devotion, i would normally go towards the sofa bed or the arm chair. I would take the side cushion and use that as a pad to cushion my knees when i kneel before God in prayer. That particular morning after i read and did my devotion, i walked towards my sofa bed area and i saw something shining right smack in the centre of the cushion.........It was placed in a very obvious spot i could not miss. I saw it as i wanted to kneel what this silver shining thing was........and then i realised GOSH!!!! it's my earring! The first thing after the shock i got up and went into my bedroom to look for the box where i kept the one earring. I was not sure whether the one on the sofa was the one in the box. Behold.........the other earring was in the box. I came back to my study and i went on the floor crying and shouting Thank you Jesus, repeating over and over again so many times and crying. I realised that only HE could do this. How can this be, how can this missing earring appear right on my sofa in the centre. After i regained my composure from disbelief.......I sent my children an sms saying PLEASE BELIEVE GOD.......HE is so REAL. He just gave me a miracle. I went for my bible study and i shared this with my group and also in prayer meeting later that evening.

Oh Sweet Jesus, Abba Father i praise you, i thank you that you love me so much, that you would do this for me. You knew i was very bothered and beating myself up for my carelessness. Thinking what i could get for Carol on her wedding day and how miraculously you just placed the earring at the place where i commune with you. Oh, Lord Jesus thank you and thank you for letting me experience you the way you have. I ask what you want me to do, please help me be obedient, please help me with unbelief when questions pop up in my mind. I thank you and praise you Jesus for who you are.
This is a MAJOR SPIRITUAL MARKER............. ALL GLORY AND PRAISES to you......

John 3:30 for 2011...

Been back since Monday, and must say it must be the age that makes one tire so easily. Well, Praises to my King as the weather was absolutely great throughout our days there. Thank you Jesus. Thank you also as it was the first time of my sharing with a group of ladies from the bible. So what that they were late, thank you Lord for the books i read. Thank you for the 12 days of dawn prayer and the wonderful manna you gave each morning. Thank you that you helped me fast for 7 days, it was really great. Praise you Jesus.

I am not sure if i will get the photograph we took with the ladies in Lubok Pakam, Medan. It was nice and thank you Jesus for giving me the idea what to share to village folk. Thank you for the creativity of putting pretty ribbons on each fruit. I best pen what i shared, lest i forget. It is so wonderful to know that women were created not as an after thought by God, but as a finishing touch. What a wonder to learn that God's comment from good, to not good for a man to be alone, and then VERY GOOD in Genesis on the 6th day when He completed everything. So good to know that whilst God used dust to create Adam and the animals etc, God used better materials when he created women........He used flesh and ribs! How nice to know that when God created man, it was liken to a carpenter and the creativity He used for women was that of an architect.......fine touches. How wonderful to know that although we are not designed to be head of a house, we have the influencing power just as Queen Esther! Praise you Jesus for all this wonderful things.

2 days back i submitted my resignation from Barnabas and asked for time out with our Hospis Day care. Taking 3 months off is something i have not done in a long time. Thank you Lord for reminding me it is not righteous deeds you want, as you consider them like filthy rags. Thank you Lord for your confirmation on JOhn 4:23 that you want a true worshiper, one who will worship from our hearts and in truth. Thank you Lord for showing me the dross i have when i am too task driven, and not realising at times i make people feel as if they are not doing the work as I just pick it up and run. Thank you Lord for prompting me on that.

Thank you Lord for the Alpha Course training yesterday. Thank you for reminding that your word will not return to you void even if they only attend the course for a few times. Thank you Jesus that the prayer ministry can get the monthly prayer going. Thank you Lord that when there is conflict, you remind me that i must submit to authority, you are in the ministry of reconciliation. Thank you Lord you teach me to see things through your eyes and not my flesh. Thank you Lord that i realise and learn my church is the people and not just the pastor. Thank you Lord that you have ignited the fire in me, pray i will want to seek you and love you even more. Thank you Lord that Michelle and I had a good lunch and chat. Abba Father, i pray for Wynn's unborn child. Lord help the child hold firmly onto Wynn. Father, let her see us demonstrate love as we try to rally and offer support.

I praise you for who you are, Sweet Jesus, help me learn and remember to pray like Spurgeon. I praise you and I thank you. Thank you that you will restore my first born to your original design. Thank you that the medication will work, and Julian will come back to your fold. I pray you bless Carol abundantly and watch over both Carol and Michelle, that you will see to their coming and going out. Please help Carol and Julian put you in the centre of their marriage. Wisdom, and heavenly wisdom for Michelle that your light will shine in her heart and mind. Bless and watch over her wherever she travels. In Jesus name. Thank you Lord......

His signs for my mission trip

2010 is coming to a close, and i had decided this was a year of jubilee and i take some time off and enjoy things, so i did not go for any trip except my holiday in Australia.

It was at the back of my mind to get up and serve God again in 2011, and so when the opportune came when Bapak Anthony sent an email blast about his next exposure trip to Medan, i started praying about it. I have learned that there are many things in life to do and serve God but only what He wants us to do and not what we want to do. So, i started praying and asking God if this trip to Medan in mid January is something I should do. I even gave God a dateline, i said please let me know by month end. One of the reasons i wanted that timing was so that i could share this information to others in church to see if others would want to join me. First thing i remembered is this.........I think the answer came fast, in fact too fast that i was not sure if it was really Him speaking.

I have been devouring books on prayers quite intently of late after i attended the prayer conference and learning about the Bario revival etc. One of the books i picked up to read which i bought some time ago was on Intercession - Joy Dawson, published by YWAM. The chapter either the same or the following night after my prayer.......these 2 words jumped out at me. Page 87 one of the words said this THE COMMAND IS GO!!!, Then, the following page it talks about the call to missionary work a couple from New Zealand responded to and guess what?........To indonesia. When those jumped at me, i thought God your answer cant be that fast can it??? I asked for more confirmation.... Next my cousin, who has the gift of prophecy tells me about her dream and the word travel agent and pastor hepzi. I did not take heed as one must get an answer directly from God. On Dec 4th, our family did an outreach christmas party and the one of the pastor's name was Pastor Happy...hepzi now that was pretty close. Sigh.......anyway i still did not want to assume what my cousin said.

Fast forward, there is a training program for Alpha people in mid january, and then in our prayer meeting we decided we will have our first dawn prayer in mid january. So, i thought to myself, God i have things to do in my own house, so i guess it is a NO for the trip. Then, quietly in my thoughts, i told God if you change the Alpha training, then you might tell me you want me to go. Guess what, the training did change to 20th. I was still saying this is not the sign. Finally, about a week ago, i knew that our first group prayer meeting for trip will start soon and so that friday asked God very specifically Can you please let me know if i should or should not go for the trip, please show me a sign or someone or something to do with indonesia so that i can know once and for all about this trip.

Lo and behold that same morning, Bapak Anthony the man who started this mission trip to Medan calls me, i was out and driving and he was asking me for my church details and service timing etc as he had HE of Le Soto wanting to find a church to go to. I did not think anything of it until later that evening whilst i was in the living room and just relaxed and folding clothes in front of the TV set, i felt the Holy Spirit prompting me........."Hello,you wanted a sign, this CALL from bapak Anthony is that not a sign, this is a CALL from the person who originated these trip"......It was an Ah Ha moment, i really felt like i was duh.......how blur and slow can i be? i immediately jumped up went upstairs and sent Bapak an email. I remember telling him that if he felt i was the only female and cannot go, it is ok as my act was to obey and to go or not was Holy Spirit's decision not mine. I praised God that though i was slow i received His prompting.

Fast forward, i prayed and asked God which testimony i should share at the USJ malay service and it seem like on being joyful and rejoicing. It was therefore most encouraging when at the beginning of the service the mc reminded us to be joyful. they then sang a song on psalm 118:24. I was so encouraged, God gave me encouragement that this was exactly what he wanted me to share. All glory be unto Him.

God knows even when i open my eyes....

Yes, do you see that SMILEY face, the photograph was taken the day i was going to be discharged. All i know is my GOD IS REAL and SO SO PERSONAL. The day i was wheeled out of my room for my surgery, i closed my eyes as i was afraid i would be dizzy. I really do not know which way they pushed me when i was wheeled out of my room to the OT, so when they stopped a while, i just pry open my eyes a little, and God showed me this SMILEY FACE.......I smiled as i knew it was HIS way of telling me HE is with me and I should not fear. As i reflected the following day (still not fully recovered the GA), it was so awesome to REALISE, KNOW and MARVEL how DETAIL sweet Jesus is, He even knows the exact timing and where i would open my eyes and allow my vision to cast on something that means something to me. You see last year when i went for a mission trip in Medan, i bought about 50 pieces or so of these SMILEY badges for children. I organised printing of the word "I LOVE JESUS" as a sticker for the kids......thus it was something i liked.

Well, you want to know how great my God is, and how He prepares me all the way for my surgery. Well, i should check myself into a single room with a view of a courtyard. I was the 4th patient to undergo surgery for that day. It rained quite a bit, and i said quietly if He would slow down the rain as Linda and Elizabeth, my cheerleaders were going to come and pray for me before i got wheeled in. It was probably about past 7 or 8am, i just walked over to the window and looked outside, my eyes shifted to the sky and GOSH i see a rainbow, not one but 2! Rainbows is something i really like. There are times when i am not sure what i am doing is right or in his will or not and I have asked God to let me know and show me a rainbow, so when i see one i know He is telling me it is alright, it is ok.

I just told my friend Michelle that there was praise music when i entered the operating room and she was not sure if it is really possible, i said yes. You see the surgeon who slit my throat Dr Koay is a believer too, and the nurse who was plugging me with all the gadgets when i was on the operating table was wearing a cross too, now how more comforting can that be. The funny thing is the evangelist in me did not stop working. I asked the nurse and then the anasthestist if he too was a christian and he said no, proudly dr wong says "free thinker". I told him as briefly as i could, not yet. I said watching black and white tv might be ok, but once you get to color tv, you will never want to go back to black and white, thats what it is when you become a christian.

God is so good, though the BP was erratic and concern, the doctors knew what they were doing. Praise GOd from where all blessing flow. I was discharged with medication only for antibiotic and pain killers. My levels were ok and i did not need any thyroxin, not yet anyway. I now resolve to leave it to GOD for a good report when i visit Dr Koay for removal of my sutures and get the lab results. I thank God for Linda and Elizabeth, my cheerleaders. I thank God for my first born for her volunteering to staying over throughout the trip and for julian and dwyane and michelle for visiting.

Thank you Lord also for preparing me to discover reading that there is a TREE of LIFE in the book of Genesis as well as the book of Revelations. To me that revelation was like you God preparing me......just in case something happens. It was double confirmation that should i meet you prematurely i know and i know there is really a beautiful heaven there. Father i thank you because you know all my heart's concern and everything and everything. you are indeed a ONE TRUE COMPASSIONATE and LOVING GOD and ABA FATHER, I LOVE YOU................

My OZ trip.........

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First time in my life......

Thank you Lord for the trip to Australia. I have never had the opportunity or luxury of taking 3 weeks and more off just for myself. Father I thank you because only with you is that possible. I thank you for the wonderful time i spent just relaxing and not rushing or having too much to think of this and that. Father thank you that the wedding went well. Lord, please continue to be with Wynn and Paul as she begins a new chapter in her life.

I enjoyed especially the trip in Kuranda, the little boat ride to the Rainforest, the calming waters and the chirping birds. The scenic train ride was also great. Thank you Lord for the time in the parks, and the joy of feeding the seagulls, parakeets and whatever your creation that came to my path. Thank you for letting me experience the cold and bless Christine for opening her home to me. Thank you and continue to bless uncle Philip and keep aunty june in health. Thank you Lord that you look into all the details, letting me have a place in Melbourn, bringing Kelly and PS there for me to shower and rest.

Thank you Lord for Jean Yuen and TH for their kindness or a ready deal when i get back within 2 days. All this is only possible because Lord you give favour to my life. Father Aba, I pray you continue to put the desire in me more and more to be closer to you, to want to know you even more. Thank you for Dr Jega and Sandra, Lord bless them with a trip to get away for them to breathe from all the hectic. Bless Sandra if it is in your plan to let her work full time.

Dear Lord, thank you that Carol is beginning a closer walk and putting you in the centre of her marriage. Father, I claim Jeremiah 3:22 as you say you will cure the back slidden. Lord, bring Julian back to fellowship with you. Father, please speak and touch Michelle as you lead and show her your plan for her in her work.

I praise you for the dross and scum i learnt about myself, i praise you for giving me a teachable spirit. I thank you for more correspondences.... I praise you, and i surrender myself entirely to you. I thank you for bringing Happy to spend time with me now and again..........I exalt you and i thank you........IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME. Next blog just photos