2010 is coming to a close, and i had decided this was a year of jubilee and i take some time off and enjoy things, so i did not go for any trip except my holiday in Australia.
It was at the back of my mind to get up and serve God again in 2011, and so when the opportune came when Bapak Anthony sent an email blast about his next exposure trip to Medan, i started praying about it. I have learned that there are many things in life to do and serve God but only what He wants us to do and not what we want to do. So, i started praying and asking God if this trip to Medan in mid January is something I should do. I even gave God a dateline, i said please let me know by month end. One of the reasons i wanted that timing was so that i could share this information to others in church to see if others would want to join me. First thing i remembered is this.........I think the answer came fast, in fact too fast that i was not sure if it was really Him speaking.
I have been devouring books on prayers quite intently of late after i attended the prayer conference and learning about the Bario revival etc. One of the books i picked up to read which i bought some time ago was on Intercession - Joy Dawson, published by YWAM. The chapter either the same or the following night after my prayer.......these 2 words jumped out at me. Page 87 one of the words said this THE COMMAND IS GO!!!, Then, the following page it talks about the call to missionary work a couple from New Zealand responded to and guess what?........To indonesia. When those jumped at me, i thought God your answer cant be that fast can it??? I asked for more confirmation.... Next my cousin, who has the gift of prophecy tells me about her dream and the word travel agent and pastor hepzi. I did not take heed as one must get an answer directly from God. On Dec 4th, our family did an outreach christmas party and the one of the pastor's name was Pastor Happy...hepzi now that was pretty close. Sigh.......anyway i still did not want to assume what my cousin said.
Fast forward, there is a training program for Alpha people in mid january, and then in our prayer meeting we decided we will have our first dawn prayer in mid january. So, i thought to myself, God i have things to do in my own house, so i guess it is a NO for the trip. Then, quietly in my thoughts, i told God if you change the Alpha training, then you might tell me you want me to go. Guess what, the training did change to 20th. I was still saying this is not the sign. Finally, about a week ago, i knew that our first group prayer meeting for trip will start soon and so that friday asked God very specifically Can you please let me know if i should or should not go for the trip, please show me a sign or someone or something to do with indonesia so that i can know once and for all about this trip.
Lo and behold that same morning, Bapak Anthony the man who started this mission trip to Medan calls me, i was out and driving and he was asking me for my church details and service timing etc as he had HE of Le Soto wanting to find a church to go to. I did not think anything of it until later that evening whilst i was in the living room and just relaxed and folding clothes in front of the TV set, i felt the Holy Spirit prompting me........."Hello,you wanted a sign, this CALL from bapak Anthony is that not a sign, this is a CALL from the person who originated these trip"......It was an Ah Ha moment, i really felt like i was duh.......how blur and slow can i be? i immediately jumped up went upstairs and sent Bapak an email. I remember telling him that if he felt i was the only female and cannot go, it is ok as my act was to obey and to go or not was Holy Spirit's decision not mine. I praised God that though i was slow i received His prompting.
Fast forward, i prayed and asked God which testimony i should share at the USJ malay service and it seem like on being joyful and rejoicing. It was therefore most encouraging when at the beginning of the service the mc reminded us to be joyful. they then sang a song on psalm 118:24. I was so encouraged, God gave me encouragement that this was exactly what he wanted me to share. All glory be unto Him.
