Liberated.....?

Is that a synonomous word for my present situation? I really don't know. What I do know is my nest has been totally empty for more than six months now. It's just Happy and me for now. As I type this in the wee hours of a saturday night, or shall I say the early morning of a Sunday......., Happy is lying right beside near my feet as I am plonked in front of this lap top exercising my fingers.

So what does an empty nester do when the "Chicks have flown off the cuckoo nest"? I keep myself occupied. Now that I am (as a friend reminds me) on the
"WRONG SIDE" of the 40s and sort of semi retired, I live my life the way (at least most of the time) I want to. Being a single parent for the better part of my life and wearing both the pants and donning the apron at the same time........... I have had my share of roller coaster moments with my 2 girls.

I am glad I do not have to experience getting up at 3 am and realising someone's not home yet, and having to go out in the pouring rain to drive around trying to figure out where my child is. I am glad i do not have to be angered or disappointed to find out my child was not in tuition class when she is supposed to be. I am glad I do not have to worry about whether she will pass her high school exams.......... I am glad my heart does not do sommersaults when or if I find another tatoo or pierce.

How do I live my life the way I want to. I do things that make my heart sing!!! As I flip through the pages of my journal in goals in my life, I find I have this desire to be able to cook good enough to entertain. Why I wrote that......I really don't know. Perhaps it is the sub conscious being desirous to be able to live an enjoyable life where I get to have friends and family over to spend time together. I use to also wish I would be able to work for free..........well I sure am realising this aspect as I do volunteer my time sufficiently to a worthy cause. The delight it gives me surpasses what I ever thought or even imagined.......

Mooncakes any one? Yes, this is the latest of things I did over this last week. Whilst I do not think I am on the lookout for challenges in life........I do create the challenges. I think I have a desire to learn and just want to have the ability to do sometings. It also donned on me why one of my fellow colleague nicknamed me "Ah Mau". I create things which need not be. Let me give you an example.........I bought lotus paste, readily packed etc....but that is not good enough for me. I just went to the store and bough some lotus seeds..........Yes, Ah Mau wants to experience the challenge whether I am able to make my own paste.

Eye lids becoming heavy, it is close to 1.30am...... the fingers even went to this key z z
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