It's a saturday after 4pm, and I am seated in my office blogging......What a life! I have in a way made some decisions and actively executed one already whilst the other, will happen on Monday.
Today, I subscribed to Astro as I feel I need some external stimulation. When I spent some time visiting Ashley last week, the TV at my brother's house was on some food channel. My focus shifted from Ashley to the TV.......How sad but I was just drawn. I thought to myself, why don't I just sign on. My sister might be a little upset I think, but I'm paying, so.......why not! I just filled in a form and faxed it to Astro. I made some inquiries and I thought cooking and hallmark, those soapy operas, and how wonderful, the basic family package includes those two things I wanted! On Monday, I will cease going to the gym. I am not entirely sure when my annual subscription ends, but I think it is in 2 months or so. The thought that I will have to pay RM170 against RM90 I was paying were one of the main factors for my decision. Instead, I might go buy myself a bicycle and start cycling again...........I really don't know.
Yesterday was a scary and tearful day for me. I lost Happy for over 4 hours!!! My sister's domestic help left the gate open and I noticed him missing. It was so difficult for me to go for a work appointment and being so torn inside. Tomorrow will be Precious's first anniversary. Precious was Happy's companion and she passed away last year. As I drove for my appointment, my eyes were all over the lanes if he was there. I was afraid I would find him knocked down by a car. I prayed hard and my whole being was in distraught. It was as if I lost someone, a family........I made the appointment quickly and returned home. I prayed that I would find Happy under my bed.......I returned home and searched, but he was not in sight. We went by car and foot and I returned home, leaving my house door wide open and my gates open. I sat at my stairway and just cried........This is crazy but I thought I heard Happy's sigh......, I prayed and I asked a friend who says when he prayed to some saint of lost things, things appeared. I was desperate, though I would look stupid, I asked my friend to pray for me. Within minutes after I sent the message, Happy was found.
Praise God and probably the saint who probably knew my petition.
I am not on top of the world and I need to pull my socks up. I know that it must be part of the physical process of the bodily hormonal changes and the pendulum mood swings I am going through. It's no fun to be alone when one is down. I did some SHOPPING THERAPY and bought pots upon pots. I now want to strut down to Sg Buloh and see God in existence in the beauty of flowers and living things.
I shall blog happier moments soon to come
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